Laziness

I'm lazy. I have come to realize that one fact. Is this when things start to get better now, now that I accept this character flaw of mine? Is that not how the law of denial and acceptance work? After all I did minor in psychology back in college, the first one. I should know this. The real question though is how do you become... unlazy? I have to wonder if my laziness stems from boredom. Dare I even reciprocate that and say my boredom stems from laziness. If I am bored with something, life, work, school I feel as though I become lazy. I know things I should do, but don't do them. I rather not fully apply myself or challenge myself. If there is an easier road, I rather be on it. And here, here I am, laying in bed at 1:21am per my laptop corner clock which still is in Pacific time (aka it is really 4:21am for those unable to decipher that sentence). Being unproductive. Being lazy. I can not help but think of Benjamin Franklin's quote "Early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise." Of course, what if i just don't go to bed. It does not help that I can't focus on anything for very long. Attention Deficit Disorder. Never diagnosed. Could that just be a poor excuse for laziness and boredom? I don't want to be lazy. I hate that I am. I hate that I give in to my laziness, my uninterest, my attention deficit.

Here's is phrase from the past, "I'm Mental!" But I am. Could it really be ADD? or Depression that breeds uninterest? or simply am I a lazy being trying to find excuses?
I do not want to be lazy. I want to get myself motivated to go for bike rides and hikes. I want to be the best nurse, full of knowledge and skills. I want to be able to fix things without get distracted. The answer could be simple, medication. That seems to help. I do not like that idea. I do not like the idea of depending so much on medication. My next option would be habit-retraining. This takes time and dedication. How do force yourself to not be laziness when you are too lazy to force yourself.

With it being 4:44am a solution to my dilemma will not be uncovered. Technically it is early to bed, early in the morning!

All I need is a swift kick in the ass!